all the restrictions and rules and regulations here at school are getting to me.
and i guess i should put into practice my submission and authority class, and "enjoy" the humbling experience.
I guess I'm not one for micromanagement and notarized excuses from your mother to miss a chapel to have a job.
or sleep early on monday nights or sign out on mondays.
curfew. cafeteria. call your mother to ask permission for things.
i should be able to put my pride and the rebellion (that is called witchcraft) under enough to not get really upset by these rules or annoying Inconveniences.
yet i am distressed and really angry and then feel sick and can't sleep, which is very very odd.
yeah i just had to write because i was frustrated/offended/mad/upset/sad/sick in about 5 minutes.
and i don't want to be that person that rebels.
because that wouldn't be a problem on their part, even if they are kind of douche-y about their rules,
it would be a problem on my part...
for not submitting to (God-placed) authority in my life (that does, technically, have some reason for their rules, even if I don't agree)
for having a bad attitude
and for sinning, just because I'm angry.
sigh.
Its just really
hard to be a
decent human
being.
1 comment:
:) It seems to me that we talked about this before you went to ORU. You know you don't like people telling you what to do...and you are now paying someone to tell you what to do!
Once again I am impressed that you recognize the right thing to do and you are taking steps to do that.
It is all too easy to let yourself get angry about the rules and having to get permission to do everything. Stay strong and continue to be a decent human being.
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